Behind These Blue Eyes.

Behind these blue eyes is a broken heart.

Many shed tears,

A lonely soul,

And a mind that is tired of dealing with it all,

There were many nights these blue eyes has cried themselves to sleep,

No hands to wipe away the tears,

Only praying for someone to look into them

And see all the heart break,

Which that never happened,

There are still nights they cried themselves to sleep,

Their soul is still lonely,

And their heart is still broken,

These blue eyes have not seen the end yet,

They still pray for someone to notice,

For someone to see,

Just how badly he has treated me.

I Only Wish...

I wish I could stop,

I wish I didn't love him,

I wish I had never met him, 

I wish I didn't feel this pain because of him, 

I wish it wasn't true,

But it is,

I honestly need you,

I wish I didn't have ears to hear his voice,

I wish I didn't have eyes to see his face,

I wish I didn't have a mouth to speak to him,

I wish I didn't have hands to hold him with,

But I do and it is impossibly to let him go from this point of my life, 

I need him more than I ever have, 

This is why I'm in this state of depression, 

Why does love have to hurt so much?

Don't look now ,gorgeous.

Up by my head,

My hand on the trigger,

Selfless bonds have been made,

My heart is beating fast,

All those memories,

I cock the gun,

And shoot,

All the love I never had is gone,

And I am free.

What he is and what he does.

He drives me insane with his beautiful face
Amazing smile
Gorgeous eyes
Perfect nose
And calming voice
He keeps every secret I've ever told him
He makes me happy every time he speaks to me 
And takes away my breathe with every look
He's funny, sweet and beautiful
I wish to spend everyday of the rest of my life with him
I can't spend a single second not thinking of him
It feels like a life time waiting on him to talk to me
Even though I haven't seen him since the beginning of the summer
He's been in my heart every time I've needed him
He gives me the strength I need to carry on
And I'd take a bullet to the head for him
I wouldn't even think twice about it
He makes me feel complete when it comes to me falling apart
And it kills me to know I'll never be good enough for him
And that he's found someone else that he loves
And that treats him terribly
I miss his love
Secrecy
And smile
And now I know I will never be happy without him
I won't say I couldn't live without him
Because I know I could but it would be the most depressing life ever
I wish I could show him how much I love him
That it would make him realize how depressed I am without him
I've tried living without your support
But i failed terribly
Every single night I broke down crying
Praying for you to realize
I know that you don't care
But sadly someone has to
That would be me
I can only be so strong
I've been told to move on and just forget about you
But I just can't
You're my everything
I love you with all my heart
This feeling will never go away</3